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My throat is sore, but there are a lot of good things happening right now. My life is coming into full circle, and I think I see it. I understand what the Chinese say about spirals and how God does answer prayers, again and again and again and again. I'm hesitant about saying here what is going on because I feel if I form the words, if I give them a body, everything will crumble and turn to dust, then I'll be back to emptyhandedness. I've seen this happen so many times. Though, I'm so excited I can't contain; I want to shout REALLY loud. One good thing I can say is that there are lots of ponies for me to ride now. So I have something fun to do during the day. And I feel this is my practice in life, helping ponies. Learning from them what it is to be raw and truthful. Also, I have nothing else to say and I want a potters wheel to make my own cups. I'm adamant and difficult about it.

But if you could lend me your prayers...